I never knew how much I would love being a Mum. Being a Mum, for me, was one of those things you went on to do when you got married. I was not overly maternal, was never the one to fuss over a baby if one was bought into the office and I assumed I would go back to work fairly quickly after giving birth as I thought I would be bored at home.
As soon as I held Sydney in my arms everything changed. I could not imagine ever leaving her to go back to work, I enjoyed being at home and treasuring every moment with her and I felt hugely protective over her. I was not prepared for the overwhelming feeling of love I would feel; like nothing I could ever really comprehend and certainly not something I could prepare for.
Wind forward 4 years and I still haven’t returned to work, we now have Morgan, who I feel the same amount of adoration for, and I don’t have a single moment to be bored at home! Every day is jam-packed, tiring, sometimes challenging and worrying and yet whenever I start eye-ing up job vacancies or think I am fed up with being a stay at home mum I then wonder how on earth I would juggle things to get the right balance and I ultimately resort to the fact it will never work until the girls are at school.
I couldn’t imagine life to be any different right now.
Being a Mother is the most overwhelmingly amazing honour. Being a Mother has made me the person I always wanted to be. In fact, I don’t think I was really me until I became a Mum. Every day is rewarding and sacred. Every time I look at the girls I try to cling onto every expression and moment, trying to take a mental photograph. I know how quickly time goes and I don’t want to miss out on a thing.
Mother’s Day is the most special time; to be with your own Mum and to feel such love from your own children on the same day is precious.
This year was lovely. Sydney had made me a beautiful card and gift at pre-school and Jack had done an amazing job doing a hand and foot print picture for me which the girls were excited to give me (and to help me open!)
I have 3 sisters and we always get together with my Mum and Dad every Mother’s Day. This year we went to a pub in Forest Hill for lunch. I was on my own with the girls as Jack went to see his own Mum, and I was prepared for the girls to be hard work but they were beautifully well behaved and we had a really lovely time.
It is strange to think that in a year’s time, Sydney will be at school and my youngest sister will have had her baby.
Life continues to evolve and there continues to be more added layers of emotion and love as there are more memories and moments that we all share and experience.
Being a Mum is honestly the best thing in the world.