Becoming a Mum; Becoming Me

MUM

I never knew how much I would love being a Mum. Being a Mum, for me, was one of those things you went on to do when you got married. I was not overly maternal, was never the one to fuss over a baby if one was bought into the office and I assumed I would go back to work fairly quickly after giving birth as I thought I would be bored at home.

As soon as I held Sydney in my arms everything changed. I could not imagine ever leaving her to go back to work, I enjoyed being at home and treasuring every moment with her and I felt hugely protective over her. I was not prepared for the overwhelming feeling of love I would feel; like nothing I could ever really comprehend and certainly not something I could prepare for.

Wind forward 4 years and I still haven’t returned to work, we now have Morgan, who I feel the same amount of adoration for, and I don’t have a single moment to be bored at home! Every day is jam-packed, tiring, sometimes challenging and worrying and yet whenever I start eye-ing up job vacancies or think I am fed up with being a stay at home mum I then wonder how on earth I would juggle things to get the right balance and I ultimately resort to the fact it will never work until the girls are at school.

I couldn’t imagine life to be any different right now.

Being a Mother is the most overwhelmingly amazing honour. Being a Mother has made me the person I always wanted to be. In fact, I don’t think I was really me until I became a Mum. Every day is rewarding and sacred. Every time I look at the girls I try to cling onto every expression and moment, trying to take a mental photograph. I know how quickly time goes and I don’t want to miss out on a thing.

Mother’s Day is the most special time;  to be with your own Mum and to feel such love from your own children on the same day is precious.

This year was lovely. Sydney had made me a beautiful card and gift at pre-school and Jack had done an amazing job doing a hand and foot print picture for me which the girls were excited to give me (and to help me open!)

HAND

I have 3 sisters and we always get together with my Mum and Dad every Mother’s Day. This year we went to a pub in Forest Hill for lunch. I was on my own with the girls as Jack went to see his own Mum, and I was prepared for the girls to be hard work but they were beautifully well behaved and we had a really lovely time.

GROUP

It is strange to think that in a year’s time, Sydney will be at school and my youngest sister will have had her baby.

Life continues to evolve and there continues to be more added layers of emotion and love as there are more memories and moments that we all share and experience.

Being a Mum is honestly the best thing in the world.

10 Comments

  1. I agree with your words, being a stay at home mum myself I too am never bored and couldn’t imagine being without my beautiful children. I think it is lovely that you get together with your sisters to mark Mother’s Day each year. #maternitymondays

  2. It’s funny, I was never broody either and like you always just assumed having children would be part and parcel of being married. Now a stay at home mummy of two I feel like a completely different person. My youngest actually started school in September and although some extra cash would be very useful, it means so much to be lucky enough to do the school run (even though I moan about it!), help out with school outings, be at class assembly, nativity, sports day etc etc. These are such precious moments!

    • Thank you so much for your comment – it sounds exactly like how I feel. Sydney will start school this September (just waiting to find out about schools!) and being around to collect her and to help out is really, really important to me. Thank you again for commenting xx

  3. What beautiful words; “Life continues to evolve and there continues to be more added layers of emotion and love as there are more memories and moments that we all share and experience.”
    Isn’t that what being a family is all about, appreciating those moments shared. I really enjoyed reading this, what a lovely family you have. TY so much for linking up this beautiful post with #FamilyFun

    • Thank you so much for your comment – it is so lovely to know that others “get” it as well! Family is so precious. Thank you again xxx

  4. such a lovely post, thanks for sharing your journey. It’s crazy how in that one moment when you get handed your tiny newborn, only seconds old, the love you have for them is instantly so strong. Sounds like a perfect mother’s day along with gorgeous handmade crafts. #PicknMix

  5. Wow, this post resonates so much with me. Especially the part where you talked about thinking about going back to work…I was to a friend today who was saying she’s reducing her hours now her kids ARE at school, as there is so much to get involved with she feels like she is missing out…That may scupper our plans slightly!
    Thanks for sharing this post with #coolmumclub – I really, really loved it.

    • Thank you so much for commenting. It has been so heartwarming that others feel exactly the same way. It gives me such comfort to know i am not alone! I am really keen to get the balance right in the future. I definitely still want to be around to help out with things when Sydney starts school. I really hope things fall into place! xx

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