My baby girl turns 4 on Wednesday.
It has been 4 years since she came into the world and changed me into someone I never thought I would be. 4 years that I have been a stay-at-home Mum, 4 years of putting someone else above and beyond myself, and 4 years of worry! Worry you are doing it wrong, how to be a good Mum, whether a cough is more than a cough; whether you’ve made the right decisions.
We have a Princess Party planned for Saturday. I don’t remember organising anything so thoroughly since our wedding! I am hoping she will remember it always.
Looking through old photos is a nostalgic walk down memory road; photos of Sydney in the hospital and Jack holding her for the first time. Then photos of her on her first birthday wearing a dress that Morgan now wears. Onto photos of her second birthday where her hair is wild and much longer and where everything was Minnie Mouse related and all our relatives wore Mouse ears when we celebrated. Then photos which were only taken last year, when it was full on Frozen themed, blue icing and an Elsa cake – but still Sydney looked like a little girl.
This year, she looks taller, has an opinion about everything, her hair is really long and she is going to be starting school in September. Gulp.
Everyone warns you “it goes so quickly…” but you never really think it does when you are living it.
When you are going through the no sleep phase, it feels like time is standing still.
But…it is true. It is all going really fast and I wish I could just pause time, just to capture the girls’ ages right now and just hoping every day that we can create enough memories that we will all be able to treasure it all forever.