The last few months have been busy in so many different ways. It is only now that I feel I can sit down and properly write my next post.
I alluded to what I am like in my previous post about depression. When things are uncertain or there is too much going on for me to be able to deal with, I become utterly useless. I can’t focus; I am inefficient in everything I try to do; I find it hard to sleep.
There have been several moving parts to contend with recently.
Firstly, I interviewed for a job (which I didn’t get, but I got through to the final round). It was a part time position but I still had a fair amount of anxiety regarding actually getting the position. Organising childcare for the girls and how it would all work as well as the whole process of interviewing for the position, honestly threw me into a massive panic. Not getting the role was a bit of a relief.
Then we had the new Star Wars film (husband is a huge fan), Christmas (lovely, but ate way too much), primary school admission form submitted (fingers crossed) and we have just got back from Centreparcs (brilliant time).
Now breathe.
I am now ready to start the New Year.
Things have calmed down, I feel positive and although I feel nervous about whether Sydney will get into the school I would like her to go to, I know there is nothing I can do about it now and I just have to wait until April to find out what happens.
I work best when I have projects to think about and do things for.
My next project will be Sydney’s 4th Birthday party in about a months’ time, and then we really do need to get Morgan christened and have a family event for that as she is already double the age Sydney was when she was Christened. I can’t imagine her letting the Reverend hold her like a baby though…she is more likely to be running off around the church! Eeeek…well…never mind…all lots to look forward to!
Those few things and this blog should keep me busy…for now!
I also suffer with depression and anxiety and can identify with the need to just BREATHE. We always have so much to cope with and juggle, particularly as mums?! I hope that 2016 is kind to you, filled with lots of lovely things to keep you busy. #TwinklyTuesday
Thank you so much for your lovely comment. It definitely feels like there is more to cope with now being a mum!! It is nice to feel like I am not alone. I hope that 2016 is good to you too x
We all need time to breathe but equally things to occupy our time. As mothers we’re never short of things to worry about! Happy new year to you x #maternitymondays
My second was baptised way later than my first. I even considered just having us and godparents because I couldn’t bare to think of a party. It was ok in the end. I like having goals too. Thanks for linking up, I love your blog #MaternityMondays
Thank you so much – it means so much to me the you have said that! x